A thought

From a translation of the Tao, which I finally bought yesterday. This passage has a lot of relevance right now. It refers to favor as the approval of others:

Favor debases us.
Afraid when we get it,
Afraid when we lose it.

FK

YEEAAAAAHHHH. Good show.

She said yes!

I finally got up the nerve to ask on Friday. I'm pretty infatuated.. we spent like 10 hours together on Saturday. I was supposed to be doing a project but this was way better.

Running is coming along. I've decided to go with a kind of HIITS, but kind of brought down to the level of my fitness. Which is low. Cardiovascularly, at least.

Yeah, I know that's not a word. Shut up.

Back at level 1

Whew.

Went for a run this morning. Was out for maybe 10 minutes and was done. Holy balls. Haven't run since last summer. So I've decided that this sedentary lifestyle has reset my cardio system to level 1. I need to level back up before heading to Hawaii at the end of April. Here's hoping I make it. Felt like I was having a goddamn heart attack by the time I was back home. Tomorrow morning will be run number two, I might hit level 2 by the end of it. Guess we'll see.

Oops

Where does the seventeen days go? Well the first week or so was due to the fact that my main desktop exploded. Three different blue screens, problems booting into Windows, yadda yadda, bought new computer. It's awesome. Cost about 1100 bucks though with Windows 7 and all that, but I like it. Hopefully this one will last more than 16 months.

I've come to the realization, pretty much just now, that I don't find anything new or exciting any more. If I ever did. I can't help the feeling that I'm doing something wrong, because I know that there are supposed to be exciting things everywhere... right? Perhaps it's just the end-winter blues or the midterm blues or the I-can't-muster-the-courage-to-ask-out-an-amazing-girl blues. I need something to change. Or I need to make something change. I'm looking to the future to take a trip off this continent, but what about before that? I've still got a year before I'm free to go do what I want to.

I know what I want, but I need to make myself reach out and take it.

Also, tell all your friends. www.grooveshark.com is an incredible online service. Think iTunes, but it's an almost infinite library and it's streaming online.

Hmm

Not much to recall for today. I think I did some pushups and lifts this morning, can't remember. Dammit, this is why I started this, so I would remember.

• Mini Wheats for breakfast.
• Unremarkable classes from 930-1400.
• That quiz in my SQL/database course went decently I think. Not very difficult.
• Erm... had an apple fritter and tea from Tim's today. Those apple fritters are awesome for 85 cents.
• Went to Save-On and got some milk, some Jones soda (12 for 9 bucks yay), pepperoni which is awesome, and some Doritos. Named 'Scream Cheese'. Some dude won 25 grand for that name. How hard could that have been?

And yeah, that's about it. Viva la weekend. Going to Hudson's tomorrow night. Should be fun.

I Think Ur A

It pains me to write "you're" as "ur" but I have to do it. Vampire Weekend's Contra album has been stuck in my head all day. It's silly.
Not a bad day altogether. Did 41 pushups before going to class this morning, which I think is not bad, considering how I was when I started. Did 10 curls, too. My upper arms need help badly. They're practically the same size as my forearms, which is never good.
Made a three-egg broccoli omelette this morning. It turned out magically, I don't know when I learned to make omelettes but it seems to be working. Plus the combination of broccoli and eggs is fantastic. Very much recommend.
Finally managed to get a hold of Sarah at Subnet, got my start date hammered out (May 10th! I get a whole week to move and settle in. Beautiful.) and such, so that's good. This term may turn out to be good, or may be hell. I'm hoping for the former.
That lab today was alright. I've always enjoyed putting code to computer and making things work. Even with an abortion of a language like VHDL. I just kind of wish I was taught a bit about the language before I had to make things out of it, but what are you gonna do.
Spent the evening gaming. Played MW2 with Jerome for a few hours, and then a couple hours of Mass Effect 1, until I died at a big boss and realized I hadn't saved since the beginning of a planet. That's always enough to make me nerd rage quit.
Have a lecture quiz tomorrow in my database/SQL course. Maybe should have boned up on my relational algebra and SQL syntax. Oh well, I'll just wing it. I don't really need good marks in anything, as long as I can pass my courses.
Busted out a couple more sets of curls before bed, time to go catatonic for a little under 8 hours.

And so on

Blorf. It's days like this that make me want to just up and quit. Already can't wait for Reading Week, hopefully a week full of relaxation and de-stress. Allow me to illustrate:

• Alarmed at 700, up at 710 to shower and eat breakfast, mini wheats and yogurt.
• Out the door at 8:15 for my seminar that starts at 830. Guaranteed to be late. Meh.
• Hour long seminar leads into 80 minute lecture of same class via quiz. Admittedly, quiz went decently. Expect about 7/10. That's what passes for decent these days I guess.
• Immediately segue into another 80 minute lecture on SQL. Have trouble staying awake.
• Once again, immediately move to an 80 minute lecture on VHDL JTAG structure. Eat a piece of Pizza 73 Deluxe. Does not feel good. Spend most of class looking at funny pictures on a friend's laptop. Don't learn anything.
• An 80 minute lab on SQL, translating english to relational algebra to SQL statements. Not too difficult, but still torturous.
  
• For those keeping score at home, I had classes from 830 until 330 without a break. It's kind of like a work day, except it's not over yet.
• Call Subnet to discuss my offer letter at 430. Future supervisor says she'll call me right back. Doesn't. Come on, now. Maybe tomorrow I guess.
• Do a pre-lab that's actually doing the lab. Question 4 of pre-lab is literally "Write all the code you're going to use during this lab". Bleargh.
• Call parents for a 15 minute conversation to let them know that I don't know anything about my job still.
• Almost write down answer for first question of assignment due tomorrow. Stress, laziness, nihilism, put down pencil. Fuck it. The entire assignment weight is 5%, I'm not going to waste my energy. Oh no wait, I don't have any more to waste.
• Spend a couple hours playing WoW.

It almost doesn't look so bad on paper. I guess you have to do this every day for something around 4 years of your life now to get crushed by it all. Can't wait to go back to a 9-5ish job where I can go home and not have to keep doing the job.
For those of you keeping track at home, keep an eye out. This is the flavor of most posts! I warned you, it's only something of a life.

Number the Second

• Woken up by alarm at about 730. Got out of bed at 810. Healthy use of snooze button helped.
• Did 16+1 pushups, followed by a set of 4 fist and 6 regular, then 10 more a few minutes later. Not a bad start to the day. Always look better in the morning.
• Mini Wheats and yogurt for breakfast. Why do mini wheats get soggy so fast? My Kashi never does. But it's also not covered in delicious sugar.
• School from 10-3. 10-1 was lectures, 1-3 was a frustrating exercise in slow computers. Why the hell do we have machines running Windows 2000 in a 400 level computer engineering lab? Fffuuuu
• While at school, had a Jones (root beer, not that good), Twix, and a Coffee Crisp. Not so healthy.
• Had 2 biscuits, 2 Dad's cookies, and half a bag of pretzels. So unnecessary.
• Took from about 430 until 9 to write 6 pages of text and prepare the rest of my 31-page lab report. Disgusting.
• Dinner around 530-6. Soup and biscuits! Those 6 litres of soup will last me a while, methinks.
  
• Watched Chuck from 9-10. Awesome episode, like always. Yvonne Strahovski always does it for me. Zach Levi's an incredible actor, too. Show's getting some darker themes, which I like. Did 10 pushups during a commercial break too. Feeling burny, might have to give them a day's rest one of these days.
  

Got my offer letter from Subnet today too. Offered me a pretty sweet raise if I go back. Looks like this May-Dec will shape up pretty well, if I can find a decent place to live.
Time to wallow in more self pity for 15 minutes before bed. A quiz tomorrow I'm unprepared for, an assignment due Wed I haven't looked at, and a lab on Wednesday that looks tough, on top of straight classes from 830-330 tomorrow. Blargh.

Listening to M79 helps though.

Night.

Number the First

Welcome, me! Into this space I plan on putting something of a journal (although I hate that label). All it's going to really have are lists, things I ate, things I do, things I spend money on, whatever. Just so I can keep track. I enjoy things to do with technology, so I thought why not make it all into a blog. For example, this is what has happened today:

• Up at around 10, maybe 1030
  
• Did 3 sets of pushups, 15-10-10 or so. Also one of 10 reps on biceps, dumbells.
• Ripped both of Vampire Weekend's CDs into iTunes. Listened to them all day.
• No real breakfast, or lunch. Ate what was left in a bag of pretzels.
• Went to The Bay in City Centre around noon. Spent about $102 on a big dutch oven and a salt shaker/pepper grinder. Kitchen stuff is expensive.
• Spent most of the afternoon making soup and biscuits. Turned out deliciously, ate 4 biscuits and a bowl of soup around 6pm.
• Played WoW with Jerome, and Sarah on Vent. Played MW2 around 9 with Jerome, had a poor-to-decent showing on Headquarters.
• Did 8 knuckle pushups. More to come during the evening. Wonder why pushups are harder on fists than open hands.
• Been meaning to do some lab reports/assignments, but can't due to the fact that CCNET is down. Will try again tomorrow, need that lab report.

That's the basic layout of things to come. Might occasionally punctuate with personal posts on whatever internal dialog I deem necessary to let out. Let's see if I can keep it up.